I may be doing too much. This week I am forecasting a good 10 to 12 hours in the library before Thursday. And, hopefully I can get a good 4 or 5 in today. I spent a lot of Friday studying, and a decent part of Sat. Today I woke up early and went to church. I was going to have a short nap and then head over the la biblioteca. Unfortunatly, I woke up 2 and a half hours later feeling like I had been hit by a ton of bricks. Am I overworking myself? Maybe….But it keeps me from having to think to much, and that makes it all worthwhile. Ohh yeah, and I suppose getting better grades may be good also. I have been thinking about a lot of things to write lately, there is so much crap in my brain lately. But right now I am too tired to put anything of interest down. Such is life.

By the way, the movie “The Phantom” is insanely bad. I just caught the last 15 minutes of it, and boy does it suck.

What am I doing here?

I am always amazed at the difference between who I am and who I want to be. How is it possible that I can fight myself. How can my own insides battle. How can impulse battle impulse, emotion vs emotion.
Life is a complicated affair, and I am simply not experienced enough in it. I want to go somewhere. I want simplicity. And warmth, this cold stuff is rediculous. Life is so many colors and directions.
I desire peace. Where can I find it?