So tired and stressed. The cold combined with wearing a sling and going to rush while trying to stay on top of homework is taking its toll. I just don’t feel like doing anything. I think I am going to have one of those nights where I freak out and fall asleep feeling like everything is helpless and falling apart. Ohh well.

I think I am just going to stop talking to my parents for awhile. Every time I speak with them they tell me about how I should be out searching for my position in corporate America. I know that I am going to have to start a career and probably pretty soon, but I am not sure what I want that career to be. I am still considering the military, and even possibly taking the MCAT. Unfortunately my family wants me to begin my life as a cubicle zombie 3 days after I graduate.

I really just don’t see the appeal. I can work 40+ hours a week for a decent amount of money so that I can afford a relatively decent car that I drive to and from work. Then I can get married, have 2.5 children and then retire and die. It seems like everyone in my family wants me to jump on that track tomorrow and never look back. Unfortunately I am not sure that that path is what I want. My parents did that, and they are very unhappy people. But they hide is behind their middle class sensibilities. I think there is something very sick and very wrong with the way things are going and with the path that I am simply expected to take.

Well, I am going to attempt to look-over some of my homework now. Peace, love, and puppy dogs to all.