You gain much, but at what cost?

I am in an odd mood. I got a package from my sister containing much needed sleeping pills(not available in most of Europe) and some good books. But when I read the letter she sent me the last thing she said was, my favorite song now is Casmir Pulaski day. That struck home to me for a few reasons. First off, for some reason the last few times she and I have discussed a song we had both stumbled upon it within days and realized its amazingness. I had been meaning to ask her what she thought of this particular Sufjan symphonic masterpiece. Second, it reinforced the significance of that song to me. It had been lurking in the back of my skull because the sense of loss and pure sweet beauty of the song had been hitting close to my heart due to recent events in my life. The mention of it from my sister brought it to the front of my mind, and I found myself delving into the lyrics and finding remberance and comfort in the sadness of the story that the song tells. I just felt I needed to get that out, it is such a beautiful song and so much is in it that I could not keep my thoughts from spilling onto the net.

I just tried to write something about friuendship and foreign exchange students, but I could not express it properly. It is a long sit down and have a stiff drink conversation and I am no mood to type something that complex. But the more I think about it, the more I am sure that there is an interesting phenomina going on here.

Anyways, I am going to try and sleep using my newly acquired sleep aids.