As I live and breathe.

I will be leaving soon. And it makes me nervous, usually I can feel the future. I know pretty well what is going to be happeneing to me. Now, I do not know. It it unsettling.
But, as I walked into my house tonight, I was able to smell the amazing night air, it is windy, so there is a little red dirt, but it is wet, so it smells so much like spring. I love the smell fo spring. It is amazing. I am sad, because i do not know the smells of Vienna. I will miss that of Oklahoma. But, I suppose this sall be an amazing adventure. But it seems that I did not realize how wonderful my home was until I no longer really made it my home. I know that some day soon I shall be here again for awhile. I am not sure how to express my mixture of excitement and anxiety. It seems that the night has a strong ability to steal the excitement though. It is a perfect visual display of what I already feel, the unknown.